hard truths soft drink
not a drop passed my lips for four months twenty days
though, of course, I was never conscious of counting
only finger-cracking moments hurt and moments slid away
erased soft memories of lush release and pleasure
though, of course, I was never conscious of counting
those times when abstinence cut me off from friends
erased soft memories of lush release and pleasure
long nights and pale daytime greyed into dull even hazes
those times when abstinence cut me off from friends
my discipline failed to falter I dreamt pedestrian dreams
long nights and pale daytime greyed into dull even hazes
as I waited to sip again and slip into happy ambient banter
my discipline failed to falter I dreamt pedestrian dreams
only finger-cracking moments hurt and moments slid away
as I waited to sip again and slip into happy ambient banter
not a drop passed my lips for four months twenty days
Ceinwen Haydon
