How to be Unloved

I was head-butted into the day
by a scream that bounced off mountains
then I share-felt ripping pain as
life left him.

Alone. 
I am a tight-tangle of smashed intent,
melted sugar-in-fire.
Forever on, even in sleep this memory
is not subdued.

The wisdom of despair, a new mantra.
I belly-crawled to Grace and
grew into terrifying strength,
scattering shocked souls to become
for eternity, unlovable and unloved.

Kathy Trout

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