To
someone who doesn't have a written language,
the ability to communicate with symbols must
appear to be magic. I am in awe of the
distinction this ability to write has given
our species. This incredible human invention,
the ability to store any kind of information
outside of the skull-bound memory, has no
equal for the power and the meaningfulness it
confers on our species. This one achievement
makes all other achievements possible. It
must be an obvious realization, a cliché of
the mind, that many have independently noted
the significance of writing and have been
struck with wonder. For
the subject of this essay, I want to step
back from the purpose of writing and address
the physical mechanics of the craft. Although
the content, the message, is paramount, I am
also fanatically drawn to the ritual and
romance of the materials employed. I am an
ardent writer of personal letters.
Part of my passion for
writing extends beyond content. This isn't to
say that content isn't important; it is the
prime reason for writing. Scribbling without
purpose may as well be the product of
automatons. I am fundamentally attracted to
the art form because it is so portable,
because all you need is a writing instrument
and a surface, or, as I think Andrei Codrescu
says it, all you need to write is a razor.
(If he didn't say it, I'd be happy to lay
claim to the remark.) Singing is one art that
requires fewer tools.
Unlike this column, which
is copied and read by however many, the
personal letter is a holograph reserved
exclusively to the one in possession of it. A
letter can be copied or reproduced, but the
original retains a special distinction. Just
like a fingerprint, it carries subtle
qualities distinct to its author. It is
unambiguous proof of a specific individual's
existence and testimony. Better than email or
the ephemeral telephone call, the letter is
artifact. It can become a piece of physical
evidence lodged in history. Beyond historical
artifact, the letter can serve as an objet
d'art, worthy to be a keepsake for the
recipient. I don't customarily compose drafts
for my letters. Writing by hand is linear. I
attempt to string my best words together on
the fly. When a sentence is finished, it is a
nuisance to improve it, so I press on to the
next sentence. The writing of letters to
friends is a casual affair of things
imperfectly said and revealing of the private
me, less guarded. With formal writing, as in
this column, I am far more careful with my
presentation, conscientious of wanting to
appear at my best.
The writing I do here must
at some stage of creation be transmitted
through a keyboard. For me, writing is a
handicraft, not unlike woodworking, and so I
prefer holding and manipulating a pen, not
pecking at a keyboard. Pencils tend to give
me shivers, as with fingernails scratching
across a blackboard. Throughout my grade
school experience I was always in trouble for
using a pen to do math, where those in power
demanded I use a pencil. Pencils produce a
piffling gray line; I preferred the tactile
experience of a fountain pen, where one is
pouring a wet, saturated line on to paper.
I am guilty of having a
fetish for fountain pens. I'm not actually a
collector, but I am unable to walk past one
of Manhattan's many pen shops without
stepping in and browsing. I receive pen
catalogues through the mail. I've been known
to hang out at the message board of a
fountain pen web site: www.pentrace.com. I
attend pen shows when they are within a
hundred miles of home. If I had the money, I
suppose I would collect fountain pens, but it
would be with the money left over after
collecting fine press books.
At the desk in my study, I
have a half-dozen beloved fountain pens at
the ready. The last letter I wrote was to a
friend who is a bachelor. For stationery, I
used the back of a vintage calendar from the
1940s, cheesecake lithographs of pinup girls.
Because several of the people I've been
recently writing are singers and musicians, I
have been manufacturing my own envelopes from
sheet music, Mozart's scores of his last
symphonies, and using the recently issued
stamp of Leonard Bernstein. I have been known
to write my letters on the backs of place
mats, but also on handmade sheets from the
paper mills of Cartiera F. Amatruda in
Amalfi, Italy.
As I compose this essay,
the price of postage here in the United
States is up to thirty-four cents for the
first ounce. There are some who complain
about the high price of stamps, but I remain
astonished that it is so cheap. For less than
the cost of a candy bar, I can send a one
ounce letter across this wide continent in
about three days.
Before we met, Ms Keogh and
I had a mutual friend, and to this friend I
wrote often. He shared my postcards and
letters with her. He introduced her to my
poetry. When at last she was introduced to
the poet himself, she was extremely
disappointed. She had imagined me tall and
slender, with a shock of dark hair and not so
plump and bald. I was probably also a bit
jollier than one who is expected to suffer
for their art. Nevertheless, we became
friends and because she enjoyed my letters,
she asked if I would write to her, if she
were to write to me. I was surprised and
delighted. So it was that I, who puts his
heart into the written word, struck up a
correspondence with Ms Keogh, and
inadvertently seduced Ms Keogh, even as her
letters were seducing me.
Somewhere those letters are
tucked away for us to rediscover and peruse
in the future. It will be interesting to see
when the reporting of events and
philosophical discourse gave way to an
amorous tone. When did our correspondence
become billets-doux?
Our romance began almost
twenty years ago with those letters. But once
we were together, the letters stopped. Ms
Keogh had complained about being deprived of
my letters, a tremendous disappointment to
her. She had been jealous of the many letters
I write to others. But recently, the matter
has been rectified. She has taken up the pen
and began writing to me again, addressing her
letters to me at my place of employment. And
be assured, I am responding in kind.
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