In May of 2001, I self-published a book of poems. It was titled Atheist Grace. I dedicated the volume to Shizuko, who so liked my poems, she often served as my patron. She went so far as to take me with her on a visit to Japan. She believed the experience would inspire me. I had never before left the United States, except for Canada. While Shizuko attended to family matters in Japan, my friend Kazuko hosted my three-week stay, allowing me to sleep in her rabbit hutch, as she referred to her tiny apartment. Kazuko was still legally my wife at the time. I brought the divorce papers for her to sign. We have remained friends. This is the preface I composed for Atheist Grace:
Addendum: You won’t find the book. I have taken the book out-of-print and ended my contract with Xlibris. The publisher too often disappointed me with the quality of the merchandise they produced. Back in 2001, I had provided the Yardley-Makefield Branch of the Bucks County Free Library copies of the book for their shelves. Instead, they went into a charity sale for the library. Fair enough. I am thinking of returning my book of poems to print, but with a different publisher. George Simmers, the publisher-editor, of Snakeskin, said he preferred my prose to my poetry and invited me to compose essays, opening his webzine to my monthly column. And so it began with issue 26, January 1998, my first submission of prose. Next month, January 2025, I will have been writing my essays for 27 years and have yet to miss a deadline. It wasn’t long after I began writing the essays in 1998 that I had stopped writing poetry. It is only recently I have been encouraged to take up the format again, and maybe I will.
You can find his
several books at www.Bentzman.com.
Enshrined
Inside Me, his second collection of
essays, is now available to purchase. 'Atheist Grace', the
title poem of Mr Bentzman's collection, can be read here. |