CURSE I The Art Of The Fugue Mangled cuttlefish and
fundamentalist angst. Putty in the hands of rheumatics, and
putty knives. Romantics and nose rings. Joseph Mengele and
The Scuttlebutts, industrial rockers who can cut it in any
key. Caulking guns when caulks are out of season. A pretty
kettle of fish, a kettle bulged with potatoes. Over-Romantics
and pierced nipples. The art of the left-handed blow-job. The
Beach Boys doing Gustav. The highest divorce rate in the
world. Soiled blue-jeans exposing the need for butt- crack
caulking-compound. Boiled blackcod. (Ask any Norwegian.) An
infinite series with unprovable convergence. Mahler and
rancid heroin. Pragmatists as apologists for pierced labia.
The pneumatic palm hammer. Sperm banks' advertised interest
rates. Circuits completed in the harmonics of hang nails. A
pretty kettle of cod-pieces, a gillnet heavy with potatoes.
Kettle drums boiling a symphony till tender. Joseph, the lead
guitar player, in over her head, pierced penis, sinking in
the gene pool's deep end, slurping up cuttlefish. II Agnus
Dei When the worm builds with the gold straws of venom my
nest of mercies in the rude, red tree. Dylan Thomas,
ALTAR-WISE BY OWL-LIGHT Beat it till it bleats. Singing wind,
crying beast. Abraxas, hope as sweet as a milk-heavy breast.
Servant. Cock-crow. The reddened crest that combs out light,
the increased- by-increment weight of light like cleats
glinting from a boot-sole. What completes gestures scribed by
two fingers on a priest. Hung from the sky where the sky
pressed. Hung from the sky when the sky praised. Who sucked
mutton, hooves rendered to paste commodities brokers' toupees
on shiny pates. Like a girl, with silky thighs who rates
loves, who entered into denial and raced around three
cock-crows from the roost, child of stars, give me a boost up
this fabled mansion. Fable me blessed to this line so I lay
down my bets that the slowly growing holy dawn begets
shepherds and brokers flocking and fucking like goats who
can't tell whence comes wind or Holy Ghost. Nor can I. Hence
servant, tyrant, grist for no book, a page fluttered by the
Holy Gust who enters low and proceeds up the guts. Who was
born in a cluster of cold huts. Who was born twice, clustered
cold hates sharp as well-tooled steel. The haste blood pounds
to breach arteries unlaced to wind, unpray the milling and
muttering lost who, deflocked, who, casting themselves as
lots to be drawn until the last red clots, who, into the girl
with silky thighs, spurt the cost of unfaith: mercies of lips
kissed four points for wind blown through an undone wrist.
Fuck you and fuck mercy! Let hope rust a long drawn agony the
rude bread ruts at the unhumble poor, faked joy of sluts I
present on knee and elbow. Mouth open to sluiced fire
falling, washed clean by pentecostal lust pent in my tongue
like milk swelling a breast, I enter the lair of my beast and
beat the fucker till he bleats. III Decompressing After A
Near Drowning 55.54 Atmospheres Deep In An S-Plus 3.2
Infinite Loop (coal sacks like Lascaux, where Raven on a pole
spills night across another simulation) Richard Kenney, THE
INVENTION OF THE ZERO hyperbole of electrons cursor cursory
curse fucker computer and the hyperbolically curving ivory in
the jaw for news good news o death where is thy sting
goddamnit i want to feel something anything slavery the
hyperbaric chamber that is the lap top the modem the plasma
driven screen portable as three hundred fathoms five hundred
fifty-eight meters cocksucker depth chambered hyperbaric
creaking up the pressure following a hyperbolic curve dive
fucker dive dive computer dive all hands to battle stations
all hands agitate your battle stations passive bastards dome
sky surface depth deep dome great pressure she is great with
pressure agnus dei ms dei prefers not to be addressed as
agnes even when swelling toward birth sweet lamb the shallow
end of the gene pool believes The Government rays direct to
brains of those who survived somehow denies all knowledge i
have it on good authority a federally funded research
scientist dr dei her idea gestates disgusting gestalt rate
reboot she is nearing finally the solution IV Bug In A Loop
(statistician's lament) Ablutions done, I turn away. Will my
iterations compute? approach convergence? I cannot say.
Interpreted code I weave betrays my object, locks up, and I
reboot, bug-raveled, done. I turn away from oracles, help
files, my display disabled. My function, struck mute,
converged on what? I cannot say, having smashed my RAM to
disarray as with a bullet to the head, brute comma lost.
Undone, I turn away from parameters I have assayed badly,
busted IF syntax, wrecked root. Snail-paced divergence won't
let me say my assumption or let me array data so ruptured. I
cannot impute articles of faith. I turn away from the
uncoverged I will not say. V The Art Of The Fugue, reprise I
wring my hands down fish hooks and gillnets burdened by my
harvest of kisses. Release. Infrastructure of bone. Muscle.
Bowel. Sinew. Pancreas. The mountain I tell it from was very
hard to climb. Head wounds and hand maids will not stay my
tongue, loud in the long oral tradition, pure sex, bestowed
at birth. Deepest dives of a hooked fish, the silent tons
weighing down, wringing the last bubbles of gas from the
blood, halibut and head wounds and a struck jaw, oral
tradition. Some of us will do anything to keep alive. Gnawed
fragment: Scraping the skull-edge: I used to be sparkly. I
have a picture. I carry this picture with me everywhere. I
have earned the right to speak of love. Fuck the feet of them
who pimped the little girl, the Good News not withstanding.
The right to speak of love is bestowed at birth, can be won
only at terrible cost and effortlessness. Fist fuck them who
pimped the little girl, unkindly. Others simply die, give up
the ghost, as it were, though, personally, I believe the
Ghost has some choice in the matter. The least tongue, the
tongue of a whore, I wring my tongue down the deepest
jaw-broken dives, the least, my tongue, the tongue of a whore
is best to bear such a burden, to harvest such a burden. I
kept alive somehow. Kisses and head wounds. I used to be
sparkly. I will speak: Four years old. A chain of orange and
green snap- together plastic toys around my neck was my mane.
My lion's mane. I was Leonardo the Lion in this picture and I
had a smile, even, and I used to sparkle. I will speak of
love if I want! God damn it! I used to sparkle once and I had
a mane and now I will not be still. I will shine out loud my
roar and carry on. I am big. I have a beard. My voice is big
and I speak with the tongue of a whore of love. "You
stupid fuck!" I used to lash at myself. Shut up and
listen. I have something good to say: If I turn my back on
this shadow I turn my back on this life. My life. I will not
do that. I will speak of love: I want some. VI Unbreaking
Bread Confession There are heavenly bodies and earthly
bodies; and the splendour of the heavenly bodies is one
thing, the splendour of the earthly another. I Corinthians
15:40 NEB My tongue is physical. Taste is my speech, cayenne,
molasses, sesame oil. Simple truths. Touch, my harvest of
kisses. Out of a brine I was a body once. I still am. The
garlic roots of my swimmings, the divings, the thundered red
sinnings in my ear, are flesh. Spread before my fingers are
crusts to roughen the hunger, pepper and sugar, razors, food
for a whore. When I pimped the little girl dill weed, milk,
honey. The tongue knows, body of my body. Thus, above all
else, butter. I rage my way into body. It took ten years to
bleat loose of the tang I had married to near my molars like
bouquet or curse: I am alive. How that came to pass I am not
sure I hate for. Anymore, my kisses harvest clover for the
lost lamb, a smaller work in grace.